I Wanted It To Be...

I wanted it to be natural you made it a curse
rejected your true feelings, deliberately is the worst

I wanted it to evolve, let it be something you've never experienced
Unfair to me, I'm at fault for your last experience

I wanted to be special, someone who made you smile
and even if I did your feelings remained bound

I wanted this to be magical, a soft whisper to your heart
but by default I was him who ripped you apart

No matter how hard I tried it was your past you couldn't leave
inadvertently I was blamed for his mistakes, broken promises and
shattered dreams

Now that time has passed I know that you could never love me that way
I want you to. But I hope at some point you can forgive the hurt in you.

It's Been A Long Time. . .

What's Up Intelligent People?

It's been a long time since I updated my blog (almost a year) I know I have to do better. Seems like everybody is using tumblr now, but I just can't get into all that for some reason (call me old school). Currently, I'm sitting here watching Finding Me (for the second time today). Y'all know I'm a sucker for a love story. For those that don't know or have forgotten I am currently finishing up the pages in my first ever book titled "And Then I Opened My Soul". It's an intimate collection of my poetry and thoughts. I have decided to release them because I feel that at this point in my life I can use it as a stepping stone to do bigger and better things and also I really believe that it will help so many other people just work out some things in their life. Well let me get back to watching this movie. Besides the bad lighting, occasional bad sound, & B- acting it is a really good movie and that's why I am watching again.. Finding Me: Truth which is the sequel should be out at some point this summer.

One Luv

Pat